Caution!!! Whining ahead!!!

Especially when it keeps me up all hours of the night. Especially when I've given my child every possible medication known to mothers and he still cries. He went to bed okay last night but right when I was getting ready to hit the sack myself, yep, he's up. So I rock him and he calms down and gets sleepy (or falls asleep, I can't tell in the dark) so I lay him down in his bed and go to my own bed. He's quiet for a while...long enough for me to think he's gonna stay asleep and I start to doze off. Nope, he's awake! So we go through this whole process two more times. I finally gave up and pulled the futon out and laid him down with me. But, of course he didn't want to lay down but sit and squirm. I think we finally dozed off sometime after 1am, I think. At some point this morning (there's no clock in his room so I have no concept of time which may or may not be a bad thing) he sat up damn near screaming. In my fog, I wasn't sure what was going on...finally found his paci that he had lost and we both fell back asleep.

When will this end? He's 16 months old now, and I'm really over getting up in the middle of the night. We had let him CIO a couple of months ago...really hard to do, but sooooooo worth it. And now I feel like we've (by we, I mean me and Ethan, since Craig has no part of this) have taken 2 or 3 or even 4 steps backwards. How did this happen? When will it end? I need some sleep...